broken-gurl's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- one thing always leads to another I do not feel good at all. If I had the means readily available I would not be alive right now, but since my house is so fucking suicide-proof, I will have to take some time to think up a plan. I can only wonder if Ledger will intervene before this gets out of hand again. I have not been cutting so much lately, which I guess is good. The last cut that had stitches is getting infected though which is definately bad. I dropped Chemistry from my courseload, am joining up in the CAPP class instead which should be so much less stressful and less work. Hopefully that will help me to freak out less over stuff I've missed. I'm rather pissed off about putting in over half a year of work and getting NO credits for it, but whatver. Chemistry is really not a priority right now, and I can always take it in college if/when I decide to pursue a career in something requiring it. Sigh. I just wish I could have made it through. I am pissed off and I don't know why. I feel bitter and angry and isolated and I almost don't really care. I can't wait until Spring Break - I really need away from everyone/everything for awhile. Tonight I think I will overdose on Tic-Tacs. Sigh. How lame am I? Don't answer that. -xxx- 8:25 p.m. - 2004-02-23 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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