broken-gurl's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- i never wanted to be this free Today has been crummy. I woke up in a lousy mood, but true to my goal for the weekend, I kept my plans and went out anyways. So Shara & I went to Willows beach and hung out for a couple of hours, walked up to the village for lunch and ice cream, it was alright. Besides the fact that I was in high anxiety, near panic mode, the whole time, and I felt like crawling back into bed. I am just so irritable right now. The blinking of the fucking instant message windows right now is making me homicidal. So although I did not follow the schedule Cindy & I made for my weekend, I did follow a schedule and have been doing things all weekend solid. But here's the great *sarcasm* part. The health care workers went on strike, meaning Ledger is closed right now. So what I'm doing tomorrow is beyond me, as even if I wanted to go to school, my uniform and my books are STILL AT LEDGER. Hopefully it will be over soon. I know it's not their fault and all that crap but I really don't need this to be happening right now. I don't feel able to manage for too long on my own. On the up side... I fffiiinnnaaallllllyyy got my period. Meaning I'm most definately not pregnant. Phewies. Even though the test was negative, when it's that late you begin to have doubts. Anywhos. That's the only time I'll EVER be happy about this. Cause the mood swings are a bitch. I'm having major anxiety attacks right now about tomorrow and what's going to happen because I don't know and I don't know what I'm doing and I HATE not knowing what I'm doing because I need to be prepared. Wow. Run on sentence much? Ugh. I feel like hell. I'm gonna go... do something else. Blah. -xxx- 5:13 p.m. - 2004-04-25 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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