broken-gurl's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- tears are in my eyes and nothing is rhyming So I got a phone call from Dale at Ledger this morning. The government introduced back to work legislation sometime late last night/early this morning, but the picket lines remain up and not enough staff have crossed the picket line to re-open the unit. It will most likely be Sunday or later when I go back, depends on how fast the government can fucking fix the mess they've made. I'm so pissed off. I feel really horrible about what happened yesterday, and I don't know whether or not I should be honest about it eventually. It would be for the better I guess, but I think the consequences are worse and why deal with them if I can get away with not? Confusing stuff. I've been so irritable lately, I guess the events and the stress have been getting to me, and I've been having horrible thoughts about others, about how much I dislike people and stuff. It bothers me, because it is not good to think that way about people for no reason. I mean, I guess I do have a reason, but it's still unfair to others to let my emotions form opinions about them. It's complicated. I've been thinking about going to school today, and how it might be a good idea. Spending so much time alone doing nothing is not really good for me, especially right now. But at the same time it's so much easier to just let things slip, and knowing me that's what I'll do. Maybe I'll go for a bike ride down to Saanich Centre and buy myself another white chocolate bunny, damn those are good. My arms make me sad. I'm at 4 weeks and 2 days self harm free. I am thinking I should stop counting. It doesn't seem like a good thing to be doing, I don't know why. Gah, I'm so disappointed right now. -xxx- 8:54 a.m. - 2004-04-29 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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