broken-gurl's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- one thing always leads to another Urgh, so I have been pretty stupid today. Since it is rather out in the open now I guess it is alright that I post it up here. It started yesterday, I was home alone and feeling crappy so I downed 10 or so pills (just vitamins b12 and e) and went on with my day. I felt rather nauseous all day, but I got on with things. Today, I woke up feeling rather decent until I recieved the phone call from Dale at Ledger, and things just spiraled down from there. I knew I was going to be alone all day so I got out the vitamins again and downed 20 of each. Then I took a few of my multivitamins. Then I ended up calling Poison Control in a panic, who told me I needed to go to the hospital. I called Mare, who called my Mom, who called my doctor, who said I'd be really sick but could avoid the hospital. In the time that this was happening I took a bunch more pills, I lost count after 30. My mom called Poison Control AGAIN, and a different lady there told her that I'd be sick as hell but I'd live and didn't need to go to hospital. Relieving, because that means that Ledger hopefully doesn't have to find out and I hopefully won't get booted out of the program. I might tell them though, I don't know, I'm thinking they might be easy on me because of the strike and such. So I've been sitting on the bathroom floor for most of the afternoon so far. I feel like total shit and it's all my fault. Hah. I broke down in tears in front of my mom today, and I feel like such a mess. I'm going to go to soccer today even though I know I really shouldn't. I'm hoping it will improve my mental state, though I'm fairly certain my physical state will take a beating. I'm just hoping I can retain consciousness on the field. So that's where I'm at. -xxx- 1:35 p.m. - 2004-04-29 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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