broken-gurl's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- gonna give it up, i think i've had enough I want to destroy myself. I want to rip myself into tiny little pieces because I am a fucking horrible person for living. I am a liar. I do not deserve any of the goodness that people give to me. I hate it. I hate feeling bad all the damn time. I'm about ready to just give it all up. I want no one near me right now, I just want to be alone and left that way. If you ask me "Are you okay?" one more time, I'll shoot you. I'm serious. I have this wonderful plan for self destruction awaiting me, but I can't do it now because of Ledger. I commited to that program and I don't want to give it up, but at the same time I'm getting really fed up. Things are taking a turn for the worse and I am ready to have it all be over. I take my medication like a good little girl, I eat, I sleep, I help out, I say please and thank you, I'm even remotely nice to people. I've had enough of it. I don't want my life to be miserable but I don't want it to be so damn tiring either. And the stomach pains return. Great. I don't need this right now. Goodnight. -xxx- 11:41 p.m. - 2004-05-01 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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