broken-gurl's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- there's no more excuses, no more tears to cry I'm back for the weekend. This week has been insane. I've been doing massive amounts of work with Cindy and Dale, and been faced with some really huge decisions. I talked with Ian, and he is going to forward my case to Crown Council, who will decide whether or not it proceeds to court. I'm scared, but he said it would take months, so I have some time to prepare myself. I also started a new medication, clonazepam, for anxiety. It's only been like 24 hours, but I'm already starting to notice it helping a little bit which is very good. Last night at family group I had a rough time. It ended up with me, my mom, my dad, and Cindy all sitting in my room doing some heavy duty communication work, which is a goal that Cindy and I had talked about for a lot farther in the future. It was scary and uncomfortable. I was shaking and crying after my parents left, and Cindy just hugged me and sat beside me with her arm around me and let me cry. It was exactly what I needed, and am so afraid to get from people in my life. The work is going very well, but very hard. And I'm still having major urges to hurt myself. It has been 5 1/2 weeks since I have cut though. I talked with Cindy and Dr. Firstbrook about what happened with the pills last week, and they decided not to kick me out of the program over that. I was sooo relieved. Anyway, I'm exhausted. Time for bed. -xxx- 11:39 p.m. - 2004-05-07 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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