broken-gurl's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- and everytime i try to fly i fall Ugh, another day. It's Mother's Day today to which is all the more horrible. I bought flowers & chocolate for Mare & wrote her a poem and she came up to me this morning & hugged me and said she loved me and that she cried when she saw what I had done. Awww, made me feel good. I also bought flowers and a card for my mom, and wrote a poem for her. Today we are going to the spa for a Mother's Day/birthday celebration. I am getting my legs waxed, maybe. Ugh, I wince already. Who needs self harm? Anyways. Yesterday was a good day, haha, but I don't think I'm going to get into that here *wink wink*. Yes. I have still been thinking about things that I know I shouldn't be thinking about. I try so hard to tell myself that it is just a pattern and that I don't need to be thinking this way but it's difficult and I sometimes feel like it is beyond me. I have been so spazzy lately, and it's frustrating. I just want everyone to leave me alone and let me fuck up. Who cares that it's been almost 6 weeks? Gah, does it really even matter? It's such an insubstantial amount of time in comparison with the rest of my life. Everything just seems so unimportant. Blah. -xxx- 10:31 a.m. - 2004-05-09 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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