broken-gurl's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- a life left behind I had a major breakdown at work last night. It was very bad. I had seen it coming - really. I told Peter that morning that I was just on the edge. Anyway, so I was at work & I ran out of till tape so I went to get some from Shari, but my thumb got stuck on the goddamn smiley face stickers in the drawer & the drawer slammed shut on my thumb... gahhh. So I was doing everything I could not to swear, & on the verge of tears. Julie saw me & asked if I wanted to come off my till but I thought it would be better if I just ignored it & didn't let it get to me. Well about 2 minutes later, it was throbbing so badly, & I couldn't stop shaking, I was dizzy, & about ready to pass out. So I called Julie & she called Tammy & Kelsey. Kelsey came & took over my till & Tammy looked at my thumb, but by this point I could barely stand up I was so spazzed. She took me into the cash office & I just broke. I cried & shook & just let it all out for about an hour & a half. Tammy was so good to me, just let me cry & rubbed my back & hugged me & talked to me & promised that anything I told her wouldn't leave the office. She's the greatest. Anyway, I finally calmed down & she gave me her home phone number so that I could call her anytime if I needed. Very sweet. :) I like her. Anyway, I'm sure Kelsey & Shari think I'm a total spaz now, but Julie & Tammy actually KNEW what was going on so I'm not worried about that. I'm so, so glad that Jess wasn't on last night. Anyway, Shara's coming today!!! 3 1/2 more hours & she's here!!! Can't WAIT!!! I don't even mind being on the bus for... ugh... an hour & a half. I hate bussing to Sidney. If it's not a double decker I might just have to shoot the driver. The double deckers are the only buses that are air conditioned. My new shirt is a size SMALL. A size small from the Gap... seriously, I don't think I've been able to fit into a small since I was... well... MUCH younger. Feels good! Except my shorts that I got a month or so ago that I just loved are now so damn big that I can't even wear them. They are even too big to wear my belt with. & now my BELT is getting too big. I might have to punch a couple more holes in it. I bought a dress yesterday! A blue & white summer dress. *shakes head* I don't think I've owned a dress, much less worn one, since I was about seven. With the exception of my mom's wedding, that is. Anyway, I'm out. Feeling better than last night. I'm glad I didn't end up doing something stupid. I nearly did. -xxx- 9:04 a.m. - 2004-08-11 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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